My mind is blank and I can't think

I make noise with my words

I use it like a sword

Trying to fulfill this great hole

I murdered my memories 

In an attempt for remedy

I didn't know how to live

No one taught me

Can you see me ?

Who's there?

Like a sound in the air

Can you hear me?

Blow a kiss 

Take a risk

doon't try to numb my bruises

It's used like ruses

There are like tattoos

I swear there's no abuse

See, it doesn't ooze

Only bottles of booze

Perhaps a bit misuse

I didn't know how to live

No one taught me

Can you see me?

Who's there?

Like a sound in the air

Can you hear me?

Blow a kiss

Take a risk

I wish I could breathe

But there's no fuse

Takin' a gunshot

Jumpin' of a rooftop

What would it take

For this to end?

Regret now that I laugh

Don't you understand

Do you want a graph?

It's more than I can stand

I didn't know how to live

No one taught me

Can you see me?

Who's there?

Like a sound in the air

Can you hear me?

Blow a kiss

Take a risk

I murdered my memories

In an attempt for remedy. ©

I might cry but actually you will only see me smile

Here, take my light

Darkness don't scare me

I think I'm right

When madness takes me

I disappeared in the thin air

And no one care

'Cause I'm not there to be remember

And they were aware

I could leave in a blast

'Cause  I live in a storm

Here, take my light

Darkness don't scare me

I think I'm right 

When madness takes me

Vanishing like cigarette'smoke

Tired to be divided

Trying to reunified

Pieces of my mind

When will this struggle end?

I'm a toy in life's hands

Here, take my light

Darkness don't scare me

I think I'm right

When madness takes me

You told me it's gonna be ok

That the sun never goes down

It just rises somewhere else

And I don't have to be a shadow

I should just have trust and believe

We can always write on new leaves

Here, take my light

Darkness don't scare me

I think I'm right

When madness takes me

I might cry but actually you will only see me smile ©

- What are you doing ? 

- Hum... What? Nothing. Why?

- You looked at your hands like there was a universe in it. 

- No, there's only scars on my wrist. ©

Have you ever felt trapped in your own house? You're scared to move, you're afraid to walk by the windows, you turned all the light off not to be seen and you finally go in the only room where you know you can be in peace. It's probably irrationnal but you feel like an ancestral fear is talking through you and you can't do anything about it except hide. You feel unsafe in your own house. Just because neighbors ask you to come and they're three boys and you're a lonely girl. You get scared for no reason. You get suspicious. Because you can't know why and your mind is telling you the worse. Because you're a girl and you learned to be scared and threatened. ©

Le gouffre m'avale à nouveau et il devient vraiment difficile de trouver des branches auxquelles se raccrocher. Le monstre de noirceur est revenu tâcher ma réalité et happe mon havre de paix. Il est venu entacher ce que j'avais créé, encore. Je me sens sale à nouveau. Je me sens mal à nouveau. Le Grand Sommeil guette ma porte et je commence à être trop fatiguée pour l'empêcher d'approcher. En regardant mes bras je me dis qu'il a déjà gagné alors à quoi bon lutter? ©